Monday, September 15, 2025

Billy May - The Gene Lees Interview

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“Arrangers tend to be mystery characters to the public at large. Even music lovers have little insight into the skills necessary to being a professional arranger, how an arrangement is created, the wide latitude in pay scale from a few dollars to a few thousand per arrangement, the lack of copyright coverage, the indignities and tactless behavior of singers, managers, record producers, label owners, and conductors that go with the territory of creating music for hire, the realities of writing quality music and often not being credited or acknowledged for it, and yet the sheer thrill of hearing a piece of music brought to life by skilled musicians before the ink is dry. No one has articulated these ideas with greater understanding and love than Gene Lees….


One of my heroes, Johnny Mandel (to whom Gene introduced me, incidentally), said it best:


"Most people write of music and musicians like they are fish in an aquarium. Gene is always in there swimming with the rest of us."”
Jeff Sultanof


During my research for the piece on the Charlie Barnet Orchestra which recently posted to the blog, I was reminded of Billy May.


Billy wrote the arrangement of Cherokee that became Charlie’s biggest hit and he also scored many of the Barnet band’s other, signature pieces.


When you read the following Gene Lees biography of Billy May, you begin to wonder what band Billy didn’t do some work for as an arranger, composer and/or instrumentalist during the heyday of that era?


Bright laughter: Billy May
  • Gene Lees


“Paul Weston used to say that Billy May would be writing the third chart for a record date while the first one was being recorded.


"That's kind of an exaggeration,’' Billy said. There is a bubble of irreverent laughter in almost everything he says. "No. I would time it so that if the date started at 4 o'clock in the afternoon, I would finish about five minutes to 4 on the last tune and give it to the copyist. Paul overstated it a little bit. Or sometimes I would leave it there in the capable hands of Heinie Beau or Harold Mooney or someone like that who used to help me out."


Further legend has it that he wrote his arrangement of Ray Noble's "Cherokee" right on the Charlie Barnet record date that made it famous. Is that story true?


"More or less," he said. "I wrote most of it at home and part of it on the way down to the date. I finished it up on the date. Then after that I wrote "Pompton Turnpike" and a bunch of stuff like that for Charlie."


A bunch of stuff indeed. Billy May wrote much of the book of the Charlie Barnet band when it was at its peak; and made not inconsiderable contributions to the Glenn Miller library as well.


E. William May was born in Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania, on 10 November 1916. The bassist and painter John Heard, also a Pittsburgh native, remarked, "What makes Pittsburgh unique is that they never got rid of their coal miner's mentality, people like the Mellons, Carnegie, Frick, Heinz. These people wanted to bring culture in. Thanks to Carnegie, Pittsburgh had the first public library."


Because of the huge endowments left by these industrialists (Andrew Carnegie tried to give away all his money before he died, and failed), Pittsburgh, John says, has always been culturally rich, with young people given exposure to it under excellent conditions: he remembers attending all sorts of free public events as a boy. With unabashed civic pride, he is quick to name the jazz musicians born or at least raised there: Billy May, Ahmad Jamal, Kenny Clarke, Mary Lou Williams, Erroll Garner, the Turrentine brothers, Henry Mancini, Earl Hines, Ray Brown, Paul Chambers, George Benson, Joe Pass, Sonny Clarke, Dodo Marmarosa, Jerry Fielding, Ron Anthony, Paul Humphreys - and, he adds, even Oscar Levant. Gertrude Stein was born in Pittsburgh. So was Gene Kelly, who once told me, "I danced in every joint up and down the river valley.”


"Some of the money must have trickled down,” Billy said. "I first learned music in public school. They taught me, when I was in the second or third grade, solfeggio [the use of the sol-fa syllables to name or represent the tones of a melody or voice part, or the tones of the scale]. I learned to sight-read. And I had some piano lessons, but I didn't practice. Then when I got into high school, I had a study period and I learned the intermediate band was rehearsing. So I went around. The teacher said, 'Do you want to try something? Come after school.' One of the kids showed me a tuba. By the next semester I was good enough to play in the intermediate band. I just went on from there."


He went on to become one of the most admired arrangers in jazz and popular music. He also wrote miles and miles of television music, the royalties from which keep him and his wife Doris comfortable in a large home high on a hill overlooking the Pacific Ocean at San Clemente, California.


"I did a bunch of music for Jack Webb at Warner Bros," Billy said. "I did a cop show for him, and I did a fire department show. You know how they pay composers for television through ASCAP and BMI - by the minute. You get young producers who are insecure. And they've got a fireman hanging off the building. There's nothing happening, the people are down in the street hollering, and they want you to keep some music going. And it's counting up.


"Somebody just bought a whole bunch of it in Germany. I got a nice fat check about two weeks ago."


Billy's background is substantially German. "My father's father was from the Ruhr Valley and worked in steel mills," he said. "My grandmother was a farm girl from eastern Germany. My mother's people were English and Scotch-Irish. Of all the people in the world, they were all good but the Catholics. That was her attitude.
"My father was in the building trade. He was a drunk, too. I inherited, with my daughter, the same thing. It's passed on from generation to generation. All three of us are sober. My dad was sober for twenty years before he died."


Henry Mancini, Jerry Fielding, and Billy Strayhorn all studied with Max Adkins, who conducted the pit band at the Stanley theater - one of the major stops for bands in the swing era - in Pittsburgh. "I didn't study with him," Billy said. "I met him. But I was too busy making a living. I didn't know Mancini until after the war, when he was writing for Tex Beneke.


"I met Strayhorn in Pittsburgh. Strayhorn understood about classical music. I’ve never lost my interest in classical music. Strayhorn had the verse of Lush Life in Pittsburgh. He used to play it for us. He said, 'I can't think what to do afterwards.’ I knew Erroll Garner in Pittsburgh too. Erroll and Billy were friends.


"In high school I fooled around and watched the other guys in the band and I got interested in why they did what they did. I figured out that the valves worked the same, whether it was a tuba or a trumpet. Then I had a pal who was a clarinet player, and I looked at that. Then I took bassoon one year and I ended up playing second bassoon in the high-school orchestra, and that was good training. And I had a couple of semesters on string bass.


"One of the kids hipped me up to Casa Loma [Orchestra], and Billy Rausch used to hit a high F every night. It impressed the hell out of me: still does! They had wonderful arrangements. Gene Gifford wrote most of them. By the time I got out of high school in 1935, I was writing arrangements, trying to copy Casa Loma. But it was a very stiff band, reminded me of Glenn's band.” He sang the kind of rigid phrasing one heard in Casa Loma's up-tempo work. "'Maniac's Ball' and all that. They were too labored. Tonight we're going to be hot! New Year's Eve hot.
"But swing music should be relaxed.”


By the time he graduated high school, Billy had played something from almost every family of instruments.


"By then I was writing for little bands. In 1935, like now they have rock groups, they had little dance bands. Some of the mothers wanted their sons to become another Rudy Vallee. There were always bands around. The Depression was on, and I was working three or four nights a week, making three bucks a night, playing the trombone.


"Pittsburgh was where Blue Barron got started. Lawrence Welk too, and Sammy Kaye. I got a job with Barron Elliott. Barron Elliott was Pittsburgh's answer to Guy Lombardo. It was a good-paying job -I bought myself a new Chevrolet, 900 dollars, that was 1937 - but it was a shitty job. I was playing trombone, and I had it down so while the guy was singing the vocal, I could write an arrangement. We tried to do some of the hot things. Benny Goodman was making records then, so we had to do things like that. The two trumpet players were great playing Lebert Lombardo ..." He imitated the ricky-tick phrasing. "But they couldn't play shit for chords. 'Gimme a G chord!' So I started doubling trumpet. And that's how come I became a trumpet player, 'cause I could belt it for them. When you're young, you've got good chops. So I slowly diminished my trombone playing and increased the trumpet playing.


"I figured out a long time ago that to be a successful arranger, you had to be a decent player to get recognized. But that's all I used it for. I played enough to be established, so I could write.


"And then Barnet came through Pittsburgh. I heard them on the radio, and I thought, 'Oh boy, what a great band.’ He had six brass, four saxes, the rhythm section, and himself. They were playing a tune called 'Lazy Bug.’ I don't know who the hell ever wrote it. So I went out and asked him one night if I could write an arrangement for him. He said, 'Yeah, we're gonna rehearse tomorrow, if you can get it ready.’ So I stayed up all night and made it and took it out to him and he liked it and bought it and hired me for six or seven more. So I wrote them and sent them in, but he got married then and broke up the band.


"That was in June or July of '38. Then he put the band back together, and I heard him on the air from the Famous Door just before New Year's Eve. I wrote him a letter and asked for my money. So he called me and offered me a job to come to New York and write four arrangements a week for 70 dollars. I took it: it was better than playing for Barron Elliott.


"I checked into the Park Central Hotel with him. I was there for about three weeks. I brought my horns. He said to me one day, 'Do you think you can help me out? One of the trumpet players is sick. Can you work the show?' So I went down to the Paramount Theater and played first trumpet for the shows that day, and that cemented my job with him for ever. I knew the book. I was able to sit in and play it. I went back to just writing.


"But then Charlie always had it in mind that he wanted four trumpets. Basie came in to New York and played the Famous Door, and he had four trumpets. Barnet came back one night and told me, 'We're going to have four trumpets. Get a coat. Get down to the tailor and have one made like the guys.’ We made a new deal for the money, and I said, 'What am I going to do for a book? The book's written for three trumpets.’ He said, 'Well you wrote the son of a bitch, you can make up a part.’ And I did, I just made it up as we went along.


'That was about August. We were playing the Playland Ballroom in Rye [New York], and that's where we did 'Cherokee' and all those things. Right after that we went into the Meadowbrook, and that's where I broke in on fourth trumpet. After that we did one-nighters all the way out to the Palomar in Los Angeles. "We went into the Palomar. The war had started in Europe on 1 September. A couple of nights, Phil Stevens, the bass player, ran over to the curtains with a pitcher of water: the curtain had caught fire from the heat of the lights. The management never did anything about it.

'The night of 1 October, a Sunday night, we were doing a remote broadcast. A fire started, we were off the stand, and there was no one there to throw the water on the curtains, and the whole friggin' ballroom burned down. So it was a good thing I didn't write too many fourth parts, because I had to write the whole library again. Skippy Martin was in the band, playing saxophone. So he and I rewrote the whole goddamn library." Barnet took the fire philosophically, saying, "Hell, it's better than being in Poland with bombs dropping on your head." He recorded a tune called "Are We Burnt Up?”


"After the fire, it took us about six weeks to get the band back together. Everybody lost their horns. We got back on the road and did one-nighters all the way back from California. We played in Boston. That was in November 1939. That was the first time we went in the Apollo theater with Charlie. I think we were the first white band to play the Apollo. We played 'Cherokee' and they loved us. We did a bunch of Duke's things. We played the Lincoln Hotel, and did one-nighters."


Barnet was famous among musicians for his wild behavior. Nor did he discourage it in his musicians. That was, by all accounts, the craziest band in the business, and one of the best. Barnet was born to considerable wealth, defied his family's wishes that he become a lawyer, led a band on an ocean liner when he was only 16 - according to Leonard Feather, he made 22 Atlantic crossings. By 1932, he was leading a band at the Paramount Hotel in New York City. Eventually he became one of the most famous of big-band leaders. He was also one of the handsomest, which helped him indulge his taste for women. Estimates of the number of his marriages run from six to eleven, but six is probably the accurate number.


His sexual escapades were legend. "He liked the dames," Billy said. "We played some one-nighters somewhere around Youngstown, then a one-nighter in Erie, Pennsylvania. The promoter came up and said, 'Now we're gonna have a jitterbug dance.' The contest was going to be between Mrs. So-and-so, the wife of the promoter, and Mrs. Charlie Barnet. We thought, 'Who the hell is Mrs. Charlie Barnet?' And up comes this sleek-looking chick, some broad he got out of a house of ill repute in Youngstown the night before. So she's sitting up there on the stand. She was with the band four or five days. We were working all around those coalfields in Pennsylvania, Middleport, Johnstown, and we ended up in Buffalo, New York. We played a battle of music with Andy Kirk.


"We get off the stand, and we're standing around and Andy Kirk's band's playing, and suddenly I notice there's a whole bunch of guys in overcoats standing around us, they've got us surrounded. And one of them says, 'Which one is Barnet?’ So we said, 'There, right there.' So they surrounded Barnet. That was the last we saw of the lady. She was a whore, she was a good money-maker for them. That's one of his adventures. With Charlie it was New Year's Eve every night."

Barnet acquired the nickname the Mad Mab. Its origin is obscure, but it was so widely used that even the trade magazines used it; Barnet seemed not to object.
Then Billy got an offer from Glenn Miller. This custom of raiding each other's bands for personnel was endemic to the era; Woody Herman ripped Barnet off for quite a number of musicians, including Ralph Burns. There was apparently no resentment, and Woody and Barnet remained friends.


Billy said, "From what I was told, Glenn got wondering about who was doing the writing for Charlie.


"Barnet worked Atlantic City. We were back in New York, then we went to Boston. Miles Rinker was an associate of the Shribman brothers." Cy and Charlie Shribman, based in Boston, booked bands, and backed a good many of them, including Glenn Miller's. Rinker was a brother of Al Rinker, who sang with Bing Crosby in the Rhythm Boys, and Mildred Bailey. "Miles came to me and said, 'When you get to New York, go into Hurley's bar on Sunday night. Glenn Miller wants to talk to you. And don't talk to anyone about it.'" Hurley's was at the northeast corner of Sixth Avenue and 49th Street. Its history is interesting. It was a true New York Irish bar whose owner refused to sell it when the Rockefellers wanted to build Rockefeller Center. They were able to buy all the land they needed, except this one small rectangle. All their legal coercions failed, and they had to revise the plans for Rockefeller Center. They built it around Hurley's. It still stands there, an architectural anomaly, and NBC personnel make it their hangout.


"So I went into Hurley's bar," Billy said, "and I met Glenn and his wife Helen, and he offered me the job. I tried to work it out, saying, 'Well I'll let you know.' I was going to go to Charlie and ask him if he would match it. But Glenn said, 'No, you gotta let me know right now.' I gave Charlie my two weeks and joined Miller the night Roosevelt was elected in 1940, for the third term.


"Helen was a real nice lady, though she had that little iron hand in there. I liked her very much. I got to know her pretty well after Glenn was gone. I had my band by then and was playing the Palladium and she came in to hear the band. I thought that was very nice of her.


"Actually, there are two versions of the story. Glenn wanted to hire a trumpet player. He was unhappy and he needed a guy in the section. One version is that he wanted Bernie Privin, who was in Charlie's band at the time. Or he wanted me. And he wanted me to screw up his arrangements. So he hired me. Ray Anthony and I joined the band at the same time - November 1940.


"John O'Leary made sure we were on the train and all that. He was the road manager, and a good one too. John was a good Catholic. He was an old man. We'd be riding on the bus, doing the one-nighters up in New England, and Sunday you'd wake up at 6 o'clock, 7 o'clock in the morning, and the bus would be stopped. A nice bright sunny day in New England. And you're outside a Catholic church. And the bus driver was there, with his hat down over his face. He said, 'John O'Leary just went in for Mass. We'll be going in a minute.'


"Miller was a good arranger. And he was a number one fixer. You'd get at the rehearsal, and the tunes were running too long, or somebody's key didn't fit, he was a demon at fixing things like that. He wouldn't transpose it, but he'd be able to patch it together so that it was presentable for a program. I learned an awful lot from him when we did those fifteen-minute Chesterfield shows. 'Cause he was always adjusting them, or cutting them down, or putting them in medleys - you know, he had a lot of hit records - and he'd make them fit the program, and he'd get as many tunes in as he could. And the pluggers were busy in those days; I'm talking 1940 or '41 now. He'd get all the plugs in he could for the guys, and things like that. He was a demon at cutting here, and putting in a bell note there, and then maybe he'd write a little thing for the saxes - dictate it to them - and it would be ready. He really knew how to run a rehearsal.


"But with Glenn, everything was always the same. You'd come to work, you didn't wear the red socks, Jesus Christ, there'd be a big scene. I learned to live with the routine; I was newly married. We were making good money - 1940, '41, I was making 150 dollars a week guaranteed, but some weeks we'd make four or five hundred, because we were doing the Chesterfield show, and working in New York doing the Paramount Theater, and stuff like that. I bought my first house out here with that. Then I made the two pictures with Glenn, Sun Valley Serenade and Orchestra Wives."


The two films often run on television. If you look closely, you can see a young - he was 25 - and chubby Billy May back in the trumpet section.


"After the second picture," he said, "we were supposed to have some time off. Instead, all of a sudden, we take the train back to Chicago. And that was a surprise. We were going back to work. We were working out of the College Inn at the Sherman Hotel. We were doing the Chesterfield show on network radio three nights a week. And every weekend, we'd go out somewhere, working an army or navy base somewhere. And it soon became apparent that Glenn was scouting around for something. Meanwhile, I had some friends who were publishers. I let it be known that I didn't want to play that much any more, I'd rather be writing. And I got a deal with Alvino Key and the King Sisters.


"The Miller band had a couple of weeks off. I went down to Philadelphia, did two or three charts for Alvino, and I got a good deal with them. They gave me 150 bucks a week to write two charts. I went back with Miller. We were playing in Youngstown, Ohio. I went in and told him, I said, 'I've got a chance to stay in New York writing and I won't have to travel any more, so I'd like to leave the band.' He said, 'It's no surprise. I'm going into the service, that's why we've been working all these places. I'm expecting a commission to come through any time. I'd like you to stick it out just until the end. Because I don't want people to think the rats are leaving the ship.’ That's the term he used.


"So I said, 'Okay,’ because he'd been pretty good to me over all. He was a pain in the ass to work for, but the deal was okay. He said, 'I'm going to come out of this war as some kind of a hero, you wait and see.' It came out a little different than he planned.


"I think Glenn was an alcoholic. I think he was a dry drunk. He kept it inside of him. I saw him get drunk a couple of times, and he went completely off his rocker. Just for a couple of days.


"Chummy MacGregor was playing piano in the band. He was the first guy that told me about DTs. Chummy would wake up in the morning and there was nothing there to drink, so he'd have to get down to Plunkett's speakeasy. That was the only place you could get it. He'd run down and get a cab. And when he tried to get in, the back seat would be full of lions and tigers, and he would have to run down on the street. Chummy had been dry for six or seven years when Glenn started the band. Chummy was his friend from way back.


"And I know a couple of times Glenn was drunk when we were working a theater somewhere. And he was staggering, emceeing a show, and Chummy didn't let him up. Every time he'd come near Chummy, Chummy would say, 'Whatsa matter, someone hit you with the bar rag, for Chris'sake?'


"'Dry drunk' is an expression in AA - when a person stays sober but hates it. He wants to let all that stuff out, but he doesn't know how to do it unless he gets drunk.


"He was a terrible drunk. But when he'd go on the wagon, he'd be one of those stiff people. He never learned to be a decent, sober man. He needed a couple of good AA meetings.


"I know other people with the same personality. I knew when I drank and I'd stop, I'd grit my teeth, and say, ‘I’ll stay sober, god damn it!' And then when you'd let go, you went crazy. And AA showed me the way to get over that.


'The rest of the time Glenn was kind of mad at the world. He was bitter about everything. Kind of a down kind of guy. Putting things down all the time." Billy affected a grousing snarl: "'Ah for Chris'sake, Dorsey did that.' "He used to like some of the stuff I wrote. But then he'd get around to Duke: 'Bunch of sloppy bastards.' True, but it was also good.


"When he got the power of being a leader, and got his own publishing company, he got to be a power maniac. He had control of Thornhill, and Spivak, and he controlled Woody, I think. And he controlled Hal Mclntyre. He had a piece of Charlie Spivak and a piece of Thornhill.


"I was in the band about two weeks when I got to know Willie Schwartz, who was playing clarinet.


"I've got to tell you a story. After the war, Willie worked a one-nighter with Tex Beneke at the Palladium. It was a Miller memorial. When the band was off the stand, a guy came up to Willie with a shoe box. He opened it. He had some straw or dirt or something in there. He said, 'Do you know what this is?’ Willie said, 'No.’ The guy said, 'That's the last piece of dirt that Glenn Miller stepped on.’ He asked Willie what he thought he should do with it. Willie said, 'Why don't you smoke it?'


"The one guy who had Miller buffaloed was Moe Purtill. As a drummer, his playing wasn't that good, but we liked him as a guy. He was a good guy, and he didn't take any shit from Miller.


"Miller was cruel to Bill Finegan, he really was. He messed with everybody's charts, but especially Bill's. ‘That introduction, take that out. Start down here.’ Merciless. The intro would be beautiful. 'Take that out.’


"I got that treatment too, but on a smaller scale, 'cause I didn't write that much for him." Billy played solos on "Song of the Volga Boatmen" and "American Patrol," and he arranged "Ida," "Delilah," "Long Tall Mama," "Always in My Heart," "Soldier Let Me Read Your Letter," and "Take the A Train." He was co-arranger with Finegan of "Serenade in Blue" and "At Last." By far the bulk of that book was written by Finegan, including major hits such as "Little Brown Jug" and "American Patrol," with Jerry Gray making large contributions, including "A String of Pearls," when he came over from the band of Artie Shaw.


"I stuck it out until the end," Billy said. "By the time the band broke up, in Passaic, New Jersey, the NBC band in New York was short trumpet players, and they made a deal of Mickey McMickle and me and somebody else who had an 802 card. So I stayed in New York, working at NBC and sending charts to Alvino.


"I played in the NBC house band. I played on The Chamber Music Society of Lower Basin Street with Paul Lavalle. I was working there with a wonderful trumpet player named Charlie Margulis. Charlie was a don't-take-any-crap-from-anybody kind of guy. We were playing along and rehearsing in studio 8-H, and Paul Lavalle was rehearsing the band. He stopped the band because there was a trumpet unison passage. He said, 'Play it alone, trumpets.’ So we played it alone. He said, ‘Try it once more.’ So we played it again. He said, ‘Try it one more time, please.’ And Charlie Margulis says, 'Why!?' Like that. And Paul Lavalle says, 'It isn't together.’ And Charlie Margulis says, 'It's together back here.’ And Paul says, 'Well it's not together up here.’ And Charlie says, 'Well clean the shit out of your ears!'


"What Charlie didn't realize is that up above us is the glass where the twenty-five-cent tours are going through, and they can hear it. That was the last time Charlie worked there.


"Alvino was working around out here. My first wife was a Los Angeles girl, and I thought, 'Well, I'm gonna have to go in the army.’ John Best and those guys were already in the service. John went to the South Pacific with Conrad Gozzo and all those guys, in the Artie Shaw navy band. So I came out to California. I was jobbing here. I put my card in for local 47. When I got my draft notice, they found out I’d had asthma when I was a kid, and they never called me again.


"I worked for Woody in the Palladium. That was '43. He wanted me to go with him. We really got drunk together in the Garden of Allah. I think two or three nights in a row. Woody left. Bing Crosby was going down to San Diego to work at hospitals. They were taking some singers and some dancers and a little Dixieland band to fake everything. Bobby Goodrich was playing trumpet, and Bobby got drafted. They called me to fake on that show, and I did.


"I guess they liked the way I played. I couldn't play Bing's radio show, because I still had some time to wait on my local 47 card. John Scott Trotter, who knew my work, asked me to do a couple of charts. So I wrote for him. I worked some one-nighters with Bob Crosby and Alvino Key. I finally got my card, and kept on working. I started doing some work for Ozzie Nelson.


"It was a good band. They had a roving baritone saxophone against a cornet, and they used that as a counterline against the whole band. I asked Ozzie who thought that up, and he couldn't remember. Some arranger had figured that out. When they were doing The Joe Penner Show - "Nelson played that show from 1933 to 1935 " - they were using that even then. And I was always interested in the arranging. The band had really good writing.’ I pointed out to Billy that Gerry Mulligan liked that band for just that reason. And I liked it for charts such as "Swinging on the Golden Gate,' which I remember from childhood.


"I enjoyed working for Ozzie,’ Billy said. "He was a stickler, but he wasn't a bad guy about it, like Miller was. He was a guitar player, and a bad one. He just said, That's no good, change it.' He was an attorney. But he knew what he was doing. I ended up playing trumpet for him, then writing for him, and finally conducting for him. I wrote the cues and bridges on the Ozzie and Harriet Show on network radio when his kids were so small he had actors playing their parts.


"Meanwhile, I knew the King Sisters, and they were working for Capitol, and some of their husbands were working for Capitol, so I got in there. I knew Paul Weston, and he was music director of Capitol. I did the Capitol children's things, 'Bozo the Clown' and all that.


"Then Capitol needed some foxtrots for an Arthur Murray package, so I wrote four or five instrumentals. They liked them so well they put them out. And that's when I started using the sliding saxophones.


"With the sliding saxophone effect, they attack the note out of tune and slide into it with the lip. And certain pitches work better than others, so you've gotta know that. An E on the alto will work as well as an E on the tenor, but they're different pitches. And I always had good saxophone players. I had Willie Schwartz and Skeets Herfurt and Ted Nash and guys like that. They knew what they were doing and they knew what I wanted.


"I did a bunch of those albums, Sorta May, then Sorta Dixie. They were expensive in those days, but they made it into the black.'


"And I got in the band business," Billy said. "My first marriage was falling apart, and my drinking was getting to the point where it started to get pretty glamorous. So I made an alcoholic decision and I took the band out on the road.

"Eddie Sauter and Bill Finegan had a good band. I liked their band. We played a battle of music in Canobie Lake, New Hampshire. My band and the Sauter-Finegan band. When we got there, I remembered a while before that with Glenn when we played there. That was in 1942. And John O'Leary, the road manager, introduced Glenn to the guy who managed the ballroom. Mr. Sullivan, I think. 'Mr. Sullivan owns the park and the lumber yard and everything all around.' Glenn said, 'How do you do?' And the guy said, 'It's ten minutes to nine, you'd better get up to get ready to start.'


"So when I played there with Finegan, I thought, 'Jesus, that son of a bitch, I'd better watch out for him.' We got up and played and the Sauter-Finegan band got up and played, and some kid came up to me and says, 'Hey, Billy, you're off for a while. Come on back into the office.' I went back in the office, and I looked around, and I said, 'Where's Mr. Sullivan?' And the kid said, 'Oh he died about four years ago. He left this place to his kids, and I'm one of them. Have a drink, you don't have to get on the bandstand again.' It was the greatest party we ever had.

"I was out on the road about two years, and I realized it was a losing cause. I don't like to be a bandleader, stand up there. I used to use it in my AA pitch. I said I didn't want to be a bandleader because you had to stand up there and do 'Happy Birthday to Myrtle.' If somebody asked me to play 'Happy Birthday to Myrtle,' I'd tell them where they could shove it. And that ain't the way Lawrence Welk does it.

"I ended up selling the band to Ray Anthony - the name, the personal appearance rights. I didn't want to stay in the band business, I wanted to get the hell out. The agencies and everybody were on my back, 'Go on out, you can do great.' And I did. I grossed $400,000 one year. But where did it all go? To get out of that, I sold it to Ray.


"In 1963, booze had started to create some pretty good problems. I was married for the second time. I was working, I was handling everything, and the finances were okay. But I started to feel bad. One day I got chest pains, and I was lying on the bed, smoking, and I had a drink. This was November of '63. My stepdaughter worked in a doctor's office. She said, 'Do you mind if I talk to the doctor about your chest pains?' I said, 'Okay.’ The next thing I know I hear a siren. And here come two paramedics. They said, Put your cigarette out, you're having a heart attack.’ They took me down to St. John's. This was in the days before they had bypasses. I had to lie in the hospital for two weeks. While I was there, I figured I'd try to stop smoking. I was smoking two or three packs a day. I was able to stop smoking during that period. When I got out, I got to thinking, 'How noble can I get? The least I can do now is drink.’ And about four months later I called Dave Barbour, who was a good friend of mine. He was in AA. I couldn't reach him; but I knew a lady he had helped.


"So through her I arranged to go to a meeting. I had a few inches in the bottom of a vodka bottle, and I figured there's no use in wasting it. So I drank it, and they tell me I really enjoyed that first meeting." He laughed. "The first meeting I went to I met Red Norvo, and a saxophone player I used to get drunk with in New York, Larry Binyon. Good all-round clarinet player. Larry kind of took me over. The guys all called me the next day: that was in July. I didn't actually stop drinking until later.

"The last time I got drunk was at Charlie Barnet's party. Charlie threw a party for his fiftieth birthday, and he hired Duke Ellington's band. It was the night of all nights. It was at the country club in Palm Springs. I remember drinking some Martinis before we went. Seeing Duke and everything. When I woke up the next day, I was lying on the floor in my house in Cathedral City. I knew what I had to do. I had to get to a meeting, and I did. That was it. I haven't had a drink since October 1964."


Some of the finest charts Billy wrote at Capitol were for Frank Sinatra, seven albums in all. "I started working for him, and I started working for Peggy Lee.
"Sinatra was good to me. I got along with him. The reason is I never got too close to him. I went in and did my job and got the hell out of there. My wife Doris and I have been guests of his. He invited us to go to the symphony with him and Barbara. He was very knowledgeable. I was surprised to find he knew a lot about Scriabin. He was a much better musician than people realize."


The Sinatra albums included Come Fly with Me, Come Dance with Me, Come Swing with Me, and four more. Billy worked with George Shearing on Burnished Brass and had hit singles with Nat Cole, including "Walkin' My Baby Back Home."
"Pretty soon," he said, "television came around. The first show I did, or the first you ever heard of, was Naked City. I did that for two or three years. Then I went to work for Lionel Newman, and I wrote a bunch of Batman sequences. Neal Hefti wrote the theme, and on the cue sheet Lionel listed it as 'Words and music by Neal Hefti.’ Lionel was a good cat. I wrote a bunch of Mod Squad episodes. Then when John Williams went to Boston, he asked me to do some charts for the Boston Pops Orchestra, probably 25 or 30 for them.


"I lived up in Cambria for three or four years.’ Cambria is a beautiful ocean-side community up the coast from Los Angeles; in those days it would have seemed quite remote. "I wrote the Time-Life series, for Capitol Records. They remade the swing era. It was a good gig for me, because they gave me the tapes on Tuesday. I'd take them up and write next week's show, send them into the copyist, come down and record them on Monday night. They said, 'Would you do a couple of dates for us?' It ended we did one record date a week, and sometimes two, for over three years. They've repackaged them. That was from '69 through '72. It counted on the musicians' pension fund for the guys and for me.

"I did some work for Jack Elliott and Allyn Ferguson when they were writing for television together and had that office on Coldwater Canyon at Ventura Boulevard. I ran into Lou Busch - Joe 'Fingers' Carr - and told him I was in AA. He'd quit drinking some time before. I said, 'What's new?'


"And he said, 'I'm getting married again.'


"I said, 'Oh? Anybody I know?'


"He said, 'No, I finally kicked the girl-singer habit too.'


"I told that to Jack and Allyn at their office. Dave Grusin was there. He said, 'Where do those guys hold their meetings?'"


I first met Billy in that office. I was in slight awe: after all, he had been one of the heroes of my adolescence. Jack and Allyn were in the process of founding what is now called the American Jazz Philharmonic to play scores that partook of both jazz and classical music. A score had been submitted by Frank Zappa. Billy was sitting in an armchair, reading it.


He said, "Look at all the percussion it calls for." And he read the list aloud, culminating in "two garbage cans."


Billy paused a moment and said, "Twenty or thirty gallons?" and I about rolled out of my chair writhing in laughter.


"I'm not doing any writing now," Billy said. "I quit. The last thing I did was a year and a half ago, Stan Freberg's The United States of America Volume 2.


"The last couple of things I did were so different from the way I like to record. Everybody's out in different rooms. The drums are out in the men's room. Who needs that? I did a thing for Keely Smith. The only reason I did it was because they offered me a ridiculous amount of money. We did it at Capitol, and everybody's out in different rooms. I said, 'How can the guys hear?' They said, 'They can listen on their headphones.'


"Screw that. And I don't like the CD sounds at all. I think they're terrible.


It sounds to me like all the mixers are young and their idea of a good balance is the Beatles. It's the same thing in symphony; you hear too much pounding."


Billy has had a wispy gray beard for some years now. He has dieted away some weight. He has a sharp sense of life's incongruity, and humor has always infused his writing, whether his compositions or his arrangements, though his ballad writing is always beautiful and sensitive. (The chart on Sinatra's Autumn in New York is his.) This bright laughter is perhaps the reason he has not been given the credit that is his due.


Except of course among musicians, particularly arrangers, none of whom will be pleased to learn he has retired.


As an old expression has it: the cats always know.”


Billy May died in 2004.

Friday, September 12, 2025

Robbins' Nest / Illinois Jacquet & his All Stars


Robbins' Nest Illinois Jacquet & his All Stars Apollo 769 (R 1216-4) Joe Newman(tp); Illinois Jacquet(ts); Leo Parker(bs); Sir Charles Thompson(p); Al Lucas(b); Shadow Wilson(d) New York, May 21, 1947

1942 HITS ARCHIVE: Flying Home - Lionel Hampton (1942 Decca version) Featuring Illinois Jacquet

Saxophonist Frank Foster recalled the first time he heard Jacquet's solo on Flying Home noting, "It was so musical, it swung, it was soulful; it seemed as if every note was planned in advance — that solo was so great."



Thursday, September 11, 2025

Jazz Journalist Association - Special Citation - Steven A. Cerra

 



Special Citations

February 19, 2025

Our nomination process is focused on the current efforts of individual authors/journalists. In 2024, however, projects collecting historic and more recent writings by a variety of authors made important contributions to the jazz library, and were found to be worthy of special acknowledgement.

STEVEN A. CERRA:  For years, Cerra has focused on historic articles and interviews on his JazzProfiles blog.  Beginning last year, he added self-published paperback and e-book compendiums of historic writings, including individual volumes on Dave Brubeck, Bill Evans, Stan Kenton and Gerry Mulligan, Shelly Manne, three volumes on West Coast Jazz, two volumes on Jazz Drumming and the first volume on Jazz Saxophone. Each is an invaluable research tool, providing a sense of how important artists and trends were viewed at the time by the music’s leading commentators.


Claude Thornhill, Gil Evans and Gerry Mulligan: Three of a Mind

 © Copyright ® Steven Cerra, copyright protected; all rights reserved.


“Well, I suppose it must have been after the Krupa band that I started to play the baritone. I don't really know why I did it. I hung out sometimes with a baritone player named Johnny Dee who played with Frankie Carle's band. He was very interested in horns for their own sake. I don't know if he was teaching or buying and selling horns, but for some reason I made the decision. I don't know if it was anything that Johnny said, or if he had an influence on me or what it was. I can't recall. But it seemed like a pretty arbitrary thing to do. I took the old horns that I had—my alto, tenor, and my clarinet—and sold them, and decided I was just going to play baritone. Why I did it, I never really understood, because I hadn't really been playing it. I wasn't playing baritone with Ike Carpenter, I wasn't playing baritone with Krupa's band ever, so it was just one of those kinds of left-field decisions that I've never been able to rationalize in any way, but that's what I did. I was always kind of sorry that I did because I wound up never finding an alto I liked as much as the one that I sold. Later on I went and bought one, and I never played it much because I never liked it. Same thing with the tenor. So it was all of those things that kept me playing baritone. I wasn't even tempted to play the other horns. And that was the beginning of it. I started going to jam sessions playing nothing but baritone. When I worked with a band it was on baritone.


I had always been fascinated with the role the baritone played in the band. It wasn't just the bottom note, instrument or ensemble. But a lot of the bands, a lot of the arrangers that I liked used the baritone in a way that was very melodic. And, of course, Ellington's band, the way it appears is that Duke wrote the top line of the ensemble, the melody line for the trumpet, and he wrote a bottom line that was the baritone. There was a lot of contrary motion in these two lines, and then you could figure what the rest of the section is doing based on these two main lines. So that means the baritone line was essential to the ensemble, and I liked that very much. ….


Most of the bands when they added a fifth saxophone, a baritone sax, they stuck it on the bottom like a tuba, which can be boring to play. But if you've got something interesting in the ensemble, it's a great register. It's like playing the cello in an orchestra, which is a beautiful register in relationship to the whole ensemble.


In fact, I've often thought, when people ask me, "Why did you choose baritone instead of alto?" I said, "Well, if I had been a string player in my youth, I probably would have chosen cello over violin for the same reason." There's just something about the register that you are attracted to, that you choose to play in. The cello and the baritone are both very much human voice registers.”

- Gerry Mulligan in Being Gerry Mulligan: My Life in Music with Ken Poston [2023]


“Gil, instead of offering any advice at all, was mad at me. That was no help. I really needed some direction. Somebody had to tell me because I didn't know how to deal with people. It was hard to get along because I've always, with my quick temper . . . things would erupt out of my mouth that were not what I wanted to say but then the damage would be done and I didn't know how to undo it. That led to a lot of personal trouble for me in dealing with people.” 

- Gerry Mulligan in Being Gerry Mulligan: My Life in Music with Ken Poston [2023]


As Gerry moved from his early associations with the Gene Krupa, Tommy Tucker and Elliot Lawrence big bands, his next musical environment found his music shaped and molded by a tenure with the Claude Thornhill Orchestra and one of its principal arrangers, Gil Evans.


Also reflected in the following piece is Jeru’s astute awareness - Mulligan was a keen observer of people, places and things. He didn’t miss much about what was going on around him.


Unfortunately, though, his observational acumen notwithstanding, this was still a period when the early Mulligan lacked the social skills he needed to interact successfully with people in general and other musicians in particular.


CLAUDE AND GIL from Gerry Mulligan in Being Gerry Mulligan: My Life in Music with Ken Poston [2023]


“There is a kind of irony about the Thornhill band, or a coincidence at least. I had loved the band as a kid still in high school, and I started getting Thornhill records because the sound of the band was beautiful. I always thought that Claude approached writing for a dance band as if it were an orchestra, and even though there were no strings, he always used, in the early band especially, two clarinets. A lot of the time people thought there were French horns in the band, but there weren't. In the early band it was just five brass and the four saxes plus two clarinets, and he managed to get those orchestral sounds that way. It was the clarinets that did it, not the French horn. Later on he did have French horns because that enhanced the thing and gave it more depth, but even so, as an orchestration device, you can get those kinds of orchestral, faraway sounds that they did so well. There was always imagination in the arrangements. They always came up with some kind of unique approach to tunes. There were some things they played that were just so imaginative and beautiful to me, and he had a great vocal group that they used in interesting ways.


At one period during the early war years, or even before the war, maybe starting in 1939 or so, Glenn Miller had a daily half-hour broadcast. It was a very popular show even though it was on at 6:00 a.m. or what seemed like an ungodly time, but it was, I suppose, before the news or after. It became like an important slot for a music program. It was very popular.


Then, after a while, they stretched the show and did another segment that had Claude Thornhill's band on it. So for a while it was Glenn Miller, I think for a half-hour, and then Thornhill's band for a half-hour. I loved the band. Then when Miller and his band were drafted into the service, Claude was given the Glenn Miller time slot, so he was really set up to become the most popular band in the country. And it was popular. People loved it.


So things were really looking up for a while and then, after not too long a time, Claude got drafted and it wasn't a high-profile draft. He chose to go into the navy and Miller got into the air force; I guess it was still called the air corps then. Miller was made a major and was high profile. And you know, they made a big fuss about it, and it was something that everybody felt something about.


Claude, on the other hand, ended up being like a chief petty officer or something because the navy wasn't about to make any musicians into officers. They figured that the upstart air force could do that, but the navy was not about to breach tradition. So none of the musicians were made officers. Claude became the piano player in Artie Shaw's band, and Shaw was a chief petty officer. I don't know what rank they gave to Claude, but number one, it was low profile, and number two, it was really tough because they sent those guys out to the South Pacific and they had some hair-raising stories to tell.


Artie left after a while. I don't know how long he was out there. Claude took it over, and from all of the accounts that I've heard about it, Claude was really remarkable out there. He'd play a piano if they had one or he'd play accordion if they didn't. He proceeded to try to make good music for the guys, island hopping for God's sake, flying island to island and going around playing for the guys. I mean, it was really physically tough and I don't know how many years they did that; really something.


So finally, when the war was over and Claude came back, I heard that they were reorganizing, and I was back in New York staying at the Edison Hotel. I had a room that was on the back of the building, which meant it faced the back of all these other buildings. So it was like a great big, not just a little air shaft, but a big air well between the buildings.


The first morning I was there I hear music, and I open up my window and I say, "My God, that sounds just like Claude Thornhill’s band. It must be somebody playing records or something somewhere," and I listen. They play the thing through and a while passes, and they start playing the thing again and they stop. I say, "My God, they're rehearsing," and it turns out my room was just about over where the rehearsal hall was.


I had this friend who was like one of my crazy Texas friends who just loved music. He was a guitar player, but he just loved to be on the scene and he was fun-loving. His name actually was David Wheat but his nickname was Buckwheat, and it fit him down to the ground. He was really a character. He showed up in my room and he had some good Texas pot or something, so we'd sit there and smoke and listen to Thornhill's band as long as they rehearsed. For the whole week, every morning and into the afternoon, the band would be rehearsing.


So I heard them when they were putting it together again. I was like the kid in the candy store. I never did go down to the rehearsals at that point because I always hated to interrupt some place if I didn't know somebody.

At some point I had gone back to Philadelphia and I was living there. One day I got a postcard from Gil Evans that said, "What the hell are you doing in Philadelphia? Come to New York where everything is happening. . . . Gil."

I had met Gil Evans, most likely when I was with Krupa's band. I remember going to some place in New York and I met Gil, who was there backstage, and we became friends.


I said, "Well, I guess you're right." I took off for New York and found myself a place to live and proceeded to hang out at Gil's place most of the time. Finally, Gil talked to Claude and Claude invited me to write for the band, and it was just kind of a natural evolution.


My first arrangement was "Poor Little Rich Girl," which Claude liked a lot. So they used to use that as the opener from then on, kind of the warm-up piece. Gil and Claude always felt that Gil's writing and my writing, and also Bill Borden’s writing, all kind of fit together. Even though there were different stylistic things, they were kind of complementary to each other.


So that worked out nicely, and I wrote for the band for quite a while. I was very much in awe of Claude, you know. Claude was such a shy man and I was always basically kind of shy and reticent, so our conversations together were always a lot of hemming and hawing, and neither of us could talk to each other.


I never intended to play with the band, but they were going out on a tour and Gil and Claude wanted me to go with the band at that point. What had happened was we spent a lot of time having sessions in New York. Whenever the band was in town, the rhythm section, who were all kind of disciples of Gil, would always get together and blow with Danny Polo, the clarinetist, and maybe one or two other guys.


I was playing with them a lot in that way, so it seemed a natural evolution to go out and play with the band for a while. I was out with them for a few months, I guess. It wasn't a terribly long time and it wasn't the greatest period for the band either, because that was the time when things were starting to fall apart in the whole music business. I think they had a hell of a time keeping the band working and getting a price for the band. It started to happen in 1948. That must have been kind of a crucial year. The bands started to disband one after another because the guys just didn't have the money to sustain themselves. Duke, for years, sustained himself on his composer's royalties and ASCAP royalties and sank the money into the band and kept his band going. But not everybody had the means to do it. I remember Count Basie in the early 1950s went out with about a seven-piece band after he disbanded. Woody even, for a while, had a small band so it really died very quickly; going from having hundreds and hundreds of bands all over the country, it just sort of disappeared.


The focus was moved. I guess all of show business was in kind of a ferment; they didn't know quite what to do with themselves. It was also a transition from the important days of radio. Radio was still it, you know. What the family did in the 1930s, man, you had your favorite show, the Jack Benny show and the Fred Allen show and Burns & Allen and so on and everybody would sit and look at the radio set. But radio was great, and as a social focus I always felt radio was a healthy evolution and television was unhealthy, because radio did things that you still had to use your own imagination; you did your own visualizing. Television does it all for you, you know; you're just kind of a blob who sits and reacts to all of this. When you compare the stuff they do now to the science fiction things they did in the 1940s and 1950s, I mean, there's no comparison, and the 1930s even more so, though I must say the Flash Gordon and Buck Rogers things were quite satisfying when we were kids.


But musically it was a good period for me because the band traveled by cars most of the time at that period, and Danny liked to have his own car. Because I was young and strong, I always had the first gig of driving after the dance was over. Danny and I liked to take back roads instead of going on the main highways. We'd say, "This road looks good on the map." So we wandered around and sometimes wound up in the middle of somebody's farm in Indiana at six in the morning. We had some kind of eerie experiences that way.


Being with Danny was kind of a settling experience for me because Danny was very mature and gentle and kind of spiritual. There was a quality about the guys in "Thornhill's band who were close to Gil. They all had this kind of spiritual quality. There were lots of almost religious-sounding theories that these guys were always into. When they were in town, Gil and Billy Exner, the drummer, would talk all night. They were very much into mysticism. In fact, the relationship with Danny and Gil was mystical to begin with.


Gil had known Billy for years apparently, and Billy had been a seaman all his life. He didn't start playing drums until he was about forty, and some place he was in — South Africa or Asia or somewhere — he bought a picture of a man with an Asian face. It was just a beautiful picture: a very serene, wise-looking man with kind of a wispy gray beard. He brought that picture back and gave it to Gil. Well, sometime later, Danny Polo joined the band, and Danny Polo was the absolute spitting image of this picture that Billy had brought back. Man, he looked like a younger version, not that much younger either, because Danny had gray hair and his mustache had turned gray. He was probably in his fifties, but he was just identical to this picture. There were lots of little things like that about those guys that made for a kind of contact between them that was unusual.


The guys in the rhythm section, like Joe Shulman, the bass player, loved Billy — and they just had all these theories about how rhythm should be played and its function in the band. They were very influenced by the Basie rhythm section, where Freddie Green was really the control center of it. Barry Galbraith, guitarist with the Thornhill band, was very much in that mold. He played with the band in a similar way to Freddie, and later on when I got to know Freddie, I realized that there were other similarities in personality, which often happens — that people who are of similar physical structure and similar personality often have the same kind of approach to music. And there will be something recognizable in the ways that they play. There are these basic structural similarities. I was always fascinated with the ways that people's physical presence related to their playing.


A good example was Lester Young, whose music, especially when he was young and playing with the Basie band, had such grace and a flying, soaring quality to what he played. It just came out so effortlessly, and he would stand and look so graceful and hold his horn up, man, he was flying.

Bird, on the other hand, who was very down to earth, had a hard, straight-ahead kind of time. He could swing but it was in another kind of way altogether. Bird would walk on the stand and plant his feet like a tree, you know; he was like rooted to the ground and so he'd play this stuff that was fiery and with that same kind of earthy, basic beat going on. The ways that they held themselves physically related to the ways that they played.


I'll never forget one time I was standing outside Birdland and I turned around and saw Prez's hat kind of sailing up the stairs, you know, a porkpie hat with the big brim, and he'd sail it upstairs . . . effortlessly, man. He floated, you wouldn't see him taking steps, he'd kind of float out of the place and down the street and right behind him a couple of minutes later came Charlie. And Charlie comes stomping up the steps and the whole place rattled — such a total difference in personality.


Several of the musicians in the Thornhill band were drawn to Gil Evans. I think they gravitated toward him because Gil tended to be a philosopher. He adopted attitudes that I think were his associations with, probably, Zen Buddhism. That seemed to be the direction that he was evolving. But his attitudes were very considered and nonjudgmental, and there was always this kind of activity of thinking and theorizing and talking. It was an ongoing thing. So it was a very rewarding experience for everybody to be part of something, and you'd feel like something is happening. Gil was very much the focus of it. He brought that out in other people.


He was a leader in a way, but he refused the conventional roles of leadership, and he was very happy to let Claude be the one who had to deal with an audience and with agents and with the musicians. You know, it suited him just fine that he didn't have to do any of that and he could just concentrate on writing, which of course is a very selfish way to be and he realized that. It's a hell of a lot easier to let somebody else do all the worrying and all the kind of work you don't want to do.


But if you want a band and you want the things that go with having a band — the music — somebody's got to do it. Bands don't just happen. They don't run themselves, and they have to be self-supporting or they can't function.


As a consequence, Gil was a kind of guru to everyone, even though he really refused the role. There are things that happened to me during that period that if Gil had really offered advice, it's quite likely that I would have done things differently. But he didn't, so I went my way. After the fact, sometimes he would get mad at me because of what I did. I'd say that it's too late and I wasn't smart enough to go and undo what I had done.


For instance, at one point all of us, even though we were writing for Thornhill, needed to write for other bands to make money. And George Russell, he was always looking for other bands to write for, and Johnny Carisi, you know, we had to do it. One time I got an offer to write some stuff for Herbie Fields, a tune that he wanted that was a vocal for the girl singer. Herbie had a band that was kind of a stomping band. There were a couple of bands like that. I always liked them but I never really thought for myself that I had a feeling for writing for them. I was always trying for orchestral things, the interrelation of parts and counterpoints and all that kind of stuff, and these kinds of bands didn't function well in that kind of situation. These were ensemble bands, and that's what you should write for them.


Well, I did the best I could on this thing and brought it into the rehearsal and they liked it and it worked out all right, but Herbie wanted me to change the ending. Well, I was kind of stunned, not because I felt that it had been written in stone and that it couldn't be changed, it was because I couldn't change it. I didn't know what to do. I had done what I could do, and this was again my own limitations. So without saying anything to him, I collected the music and left. I'll never forget the look of astonishment on Herbie's face and on the musicians, like, "What happened?"


I went back and told Gil what had happened, and, you know, I was kind of being a little smart-ass about it I guess, like wanting somebody to give me a pat on the back or something, and he was furious with me. Well, I agreed with him, and I learned a little bit about being able to swallow false pride or to be able to overcome my own blustering, because I think we usually bluster, do dumb things in life, because of our basic inability to know the right way to do it. You make the worst mistakes trying to cover up what you're trying to hide. In this case, I was trying to cover up the fact that I didn't know what the hell to do, and I made a bunch of people unhappy. I really hurt Herbie's feelings. I never meant to do it and I didn't know how to undo it.


Gil, instead of offering any advice at all, was mad at me. That was no help. I really needed some direction. Somebody had to tell me because I didn't know how to deal with people. It was hard to get along because I've always, with my quick temper . . . things would erupt out of my mouth that were not what I wanted to say but then the damage would be done and I didn't know how to undo it. That led to a lot of personal trouble for me in dealing with people. I am embarrassed to this day to have hurt Herbie Fields' feelings when he had nothing to do with it. It was my inability to be able to do what he wanted with the arrangement. That was life. That was just one example.”